Shehnaaz slowly lift her lashes up n feel her loudly pounding heart's beats
This mountain like her husband is holding her so damn tightly that she is feeling like caged in his strong arms..her small petite figure is fitted perfectly in his embrace
The intensity of that mere hug created havoc in her heart
In a single day.....this is second time he hugging her....the first one shows care for her and this one.... a passionate one is showing immense protectiveness for her
That hug is showing his other side to her She didn't know that this insensitive man could ever think of the others over himself
She lick her lips n clear her throat to get his attention
Shehnaaz :- umm si.. sidharth...kya...kr rahe aap
N he still holding her tightly in his strong embrace utter in husky voice
Sid :- nothing
His big palm is now started rubbing her back n slowly move towards her waist side
Shehnaaz feel goosebumps on her skin n she again closing her eyes feel her lungs taking long breathe
She forgot that her dupatta is not on its place....his passionate hug made her forgot about anything and everything
She forgot to take a breath in next moment when she feel his palm is now on her butt side Feeling her discomfort
He slowly remove his hands from her waist but still cage her holding her back
Sid:- breathe
He utter near her ear n she did exactly what he asked for
His eyes slowly fall down n notice how her hands are hanging beside her body loosely....how she didn't hold him back....how she didn't reciprocate to his intense hug
N here he realized that she must be still upset with him....he betrayed her...he crash down her all hopes....he made her feel worthless.....he hurt her whether it is for her good....to save her from this mess.... people of this house.......
N he decided to talk to her....to tell her everything about him..his side of story....why he did that....n what he feel for her now...They need to talk
He slowly lift his hands n cup her face n she open her eyes looking in his intense one she again lower down her eyes
N started to move backside hurriedly.... trying to make fair distance between them
She in nervousness lick her lips n move her hairs behind her hairs N she joined her brows realizing her dupatta is not on her head
She hurriedly cover her head n look up towards him with angry eyes
The moment she move backside n he loose her warmth his anger started to build up in his mind....he tighten his fist n greet his teeth looking to he unusual self
Shehnaaz :- ye kya battamizi thi sidharth....aap samjte kya hai khudko.....kis haq se apne chu liya muze.....m kuch kehti nahi hu iska Matlab ye nahi k m kamjor hu.....m toh yaha apka intezar kr rahi thi taki m apka shukriya ada kr saku..... lekin aap deserve nahi krte meri acchai....dikha diya apne k apko kya chaiye muzse.....q apne meri madad ki.... Biwi hone ka haq ada krna nahi hai lekin apko apne shauhar hone ka haq zarur mangna hai mujse
Mera dil meri ummed meri izzat meri zindagi sab de chuki hu apko barbad krne k liye....maaf kijiye ga jism nahi de paungi
N listening her each words his blood started to boil....n here he realized how she think so low of him
N taking few steps near to her he grab her wrist.... tightly....i think extreme tightly n pull her towards his torso where she feel sudden jolt in her body coz of his harsh pull
Sid :- what did you just say.....mene q help ki tumhari
Shehnaaz feel shiver run down her spine listening his loud voice.....
N she didn't utter anything out of fear
Sid :- tell me damn it
His again loud noise escaped from his mouth n she jump on her place but closing her eyes tightly n greeting her teeth she utter in one go
Shehnaaz :- u help me just because u wanted me on your bed.....
N sidharth hurriedly clutch her mouth with his one palm tightly
N she feel extreme pain on her jaw...coz of his tight grip......n alone tear escape from her corner of eye
Sid :- itni behuda soch hai tumhari shehnaaz....i didn't know that.....ye soch rakhti ho tum mere bare m?
Shehnaaz try to remove his grip from her jaw
But sidharth tighten it more in anger
Sid :- listen to me very carefully mrs sidharth Sikandar.....biwi ho tum meri.....apni biwi ko apni bhahon m lene k liye muze kisi wajah ki jarurat nahi hai samji.....
N he slightly push her jaw removing his grip from her jaw but still holding tightly to her wrist
Shehnaaz joined her brows listening sikandar from his mouth as his surname....but when he push her jaw slightly her anger again build up
Shehnaaz :- yehi toh masla hai janab....jab khudke jism ki bhook mitani hoti hai tab hi yad aata hai ki koi biwi bhi hai....warna toh zamane bhar se keh chuke hai aap ki m apki kuch nahi lagti hu...ek mulazim hu iss ghar ki bas...aur kya kaha tha uss din....apke dost ki biwi hu...apke nam k sath mera nam jodne m sharam aati hai na apko.......apke kabil nahi hu na m...bas ek mohra jiske zariye aap aur apke walid sahab kisi se badla lena chah rahe hai ....na khudki Zindagi m aur na hi apki iss zuthi duniya m..aur na hi iss jalim jamane k samne.....apne har jagah muze apni biwi man n se inkaar kiya hai sidharth....lekin apni bhahon m lete waqt apko yad aa jata hai ki m apki biwi hu
N her eyes started to shed tears
Which give him stinging sensation in his chest n he feel like to burn the world coz she is again crying coz of him....her doe eyes should only shine...not meant to shed tears... that's what comes in his mind...n sudden urge to remove her every pain raised in his heart....he wanted to protect her from every pain...even that the pain is coming from him for her... he's not even spare himself if he is the one who is giving her pain...
N here he realized his level of obsession for his biwi
He hold her arms not so tightly n wipe her face using his fingers n back of palm on which she try to move her face aside hating his touch on her skin but he now hold her nape sensually n utter resting his forehead on her forehead
Sid :- tamam ilzamat lagaye hue hai na tumne muzpe apni aadalat m....m apne har gunaah ko qubool krta hu shehnaaz....jo bhi saja dogi muskura kar le lunga....lekin apne haq m....m uss har gunaah ki safai dunga....har bar inkaar kiya hai tumhe apna man n se....aj ikraar krunga ....gaur farmana
N he hold her wrist in firm grip n started to walk towards his car crossing his huge garden of house
Shehnaaz was numb to react his words don't know how but force her to have faith on him for the last time
He drag her lifeless body with him n open her side of door n literally help her to sit inside holding her shoulders like she is some child n sitting in car for first time.....
He bend inside n hold her seat belt moving really really close to her face n he tuck her seat belt properly looking in her doe eyes
There noses slightly touch n he lifting his face little up press his lips on her forehead gently
N she close her eyes
in her entire life span on this earth... she for the first time feel secure in some men's presence.....he somehow told her to not get fear....he is with her for his entire life
N shehnaaz feel immense calmness inside her heart....some kind of peace she got by his just simple forehead kiss
Sidharth remove his lips from her forehead n his eyes fall on her soft petals like lips.... He lick his own looking passionately to her soft petals.....he hurriedly make distance from her thinking he might loose his senses if he could continue to look at her holding immense love passion obsession in his eyes for his biwi....his new purpose of living....his reason of peace.... shehnaaz sikandar
He close the door where she look towards her hands which are resting on her lap
He seat on his place n start the engine
N in blink of an eye his car grab it's speed on vacant roads of Lucknow at this late hours of night
Shehnaaz hold the corner of seat tightly... because she is scared of speed n he noticed that
N for the first time in his entire life span starting from where he learnt to drive....he slow down his speed of car for someone else
This is new sidharth Sikandar..... driving with slow speed on such a vacant roads is not his cup of tea...this is something unusual.....he drive with high speed on the road full of other vehicles n hustle bustle of people....this his way to enjoy driving but roads are empty like completely empty n still his car's speed is near about 80-100 only....
He chuckle in his mind thinking all this
He turn his face to look at her n now she sit relax looking outside of window
Her angelic face glow in those yellow street lights reflection
She suddenly turn her face n finding him already looking at her she lower down her lashes
Shehnaaz :- kaha ja rahe hai hum sidharth....
Sid :- mere sach k kareeb
N he again focus on street to drive safely coz his life is sitting next to him....he can't take any risk regarding his life now
After few minutes or so he pull breaks Infront of kabristan
Shehnaaz widen her eyes looking towards board of kabristan above one big gate
She holding fearful gaze look towards him
Shehnaaz :- hum....yaha....zinda dafan krne ki toh nahi soch rahe aap....dekhiye mene gusse m bola...jo bhi kaha ....apke ghar uss garden m.... M maafi mang lungi apse.....kam se kam mariye toh nahi muze
She utter her eyes are slightly watery n sidharth sigh loudly closing his eyes resting head on seat's headrest
Sid :- shehhhhnaaazzzzz
He utter while rubbing his face on his palm
N then again look at her holding love in his eyes
Sid :- khud ki Zindagi ko q dafan karunga m....khud mar na jaunga
N she joined her brows didn't get what he is actually speaking about.... Zindagi...dafan....she look confused listening him
N saying this he open his side of door n get down...move towards her door side he open door for her
N she still scared but decided to step down from car
The moment she step down...he instantly entangled his fingers with her
N she look towards there joined palms
His broad fingers fit exactly in the gap of her slightly thick fingers
He rub his thumb pad on her side of finger
Sid :- aao tumhe apne sach se milwata hu
N he drag her with him opening the big gate they entered inside kabristan
Shehnaaz cover her head properly.. hiding her hairs completely..... sidharth take out his white handkerchief n wrap it around his head n again entangled his fingers with her
He switch on his flash light of phone n then took her towards the grave of his real mother....
He stand Infront of the grave of his mother....n his heart started beating loudly.....his childhood memories started to strike on his mind....his ears can easily hear the laughing sounds of his family...there special time which they spent with each other in past.... everything come like movie flash Infront of his eyes....
His grip tighten on her hand n she look towards her husband lifting her head
Then she follow his gaze n look towards the grave on which his eyes got stuck
His phone's flashlight made her able to read the name on the grave
N she slightly whisper
Shehnaaz :- sitara sikandar ستارہ سکندر Sidharth come out of his trance listening her slight whisper n utter bending down his knees still holding her hand tightly like a scared child
Sidharth :- biwi suno....ye meri ammi( point towards the grave holding tears in his eyes).... Aao milo unse
N shehnaaz's eyes widen listening him.....
She feel his tight grip on her hand....n she slowly bend down on her knees beside him looking to that grave with shock filled eyes..here she recall he use the name sikandar for himself just a while ago
Sid :- i am not khan......m inka beta hu....meri ammi sitara sikandar....jinhe mene kho diya kafi saloon pehle
His shaking voice roam in that silent atmosphere
N shehnaaz still confused look towards him...
Sid :- mr khan n his family adopt me.... I'm not there son...mene unhe majboor kiya muze adopt krne k liye qki m unse badla lena chahta hu....apne ammi aur abbu ki maut ka badla
N then lift his finger up n point towards the other grave which is slightly far from his mother's grave
Sid :- wo mere abbu.....mr khan n his family kill our happiness shehnaaz
M jab 13 years ka tha tab mene apni khushio ko kho diya
My mother sitara sikandar she is my inspiration....she was a great politician....she single Handley used to run her party....awam ki chahiti....logo k liye unki khuda thi....zarurat mand logo ka sahara thi....awam ki khidmat krna hi unke Zindagi ka ek lauta maqsad tha..... dargha jake k pir fakiro ki khidmat krna....majeed ki tamaam jaruraton ko pura krna.... school hospitals na jane aur kya kya banwaya unhone ruler areas m...sadkon ki marramat...pani bijli sab kuch wo khud k paiso se krti thi agar sarkar unhe madad na de.... NGO hai unke nam k aj bhi jinka khayal m rakhta hu....meri ammi logo ki pasandida sirf isliye nahi thi ki wo unhe paiso se madad krti ya toh unka koi elections jitne ka irada hota tha....wo wahkai m khuda ka farishta thi.....unhe dekhta tha m jab bhi toh lagta tha k m bada hokar unke tarah banunga......dai..dairy likhna pasand tha unhe...she used to write shayari aise unhone kaha tha muze...lekin kabhi pad nahi paya k wo kya likhti thi
Mere marhoom nanajaan unhone mere ammi ki parvarish kuch aisi ki thi....she belongs from a very rich family....unhone bataya tha unki kahani....she was brilliant in studies then started to join nanu n his NGO work.... But when nanu suggest her to meet my abbu she was not ready for marriage but started to falling in love with him...after there marriage my abbu insist her to start her own party n start her political career....he support her in every way
They started to live there dream life....full of love happiness n what not.....they have me after 4 years of there marriage.....wo dono bahot khush the aur ammi bhi....muje unn dono n duniya se chupa k rakhne ka faisla liya tha...ammi k political career k wajase kafi log rivals ban chuke the....lekin fir bhi duniya ko kabhi khabar na hone bawjood unn dono n milke bahot acchi Zindagi di muze..... comfortable life.... freedom..... everything....bahot acchi tarbiyat ki .....accha insaan kise kehte hai wo sikhaya.....after some time they decided to send me for boarding school.....i used to visit my home in my vacations...there i saw shakeeb meer for the first time.....but i never come Infront of any of their guests.....
N shehnaaz take long breathe listening her uncle's name from his mouth
Sid :- yes ur uncle....he was close to my parents n oftentimes visited our house regarding elections...campign etc....my mother used to trust him alot....but one thing i started to noticed that some unknown kind of distance between my parents....they used to be a happy couple but suddenly i noticed that charm is Missing in them
Ammi told me it's just there work load is disturbing their personal life n i believe on that....dad started to face crisis in his business Ammi's rivals mr khan they started to trouble him....ammi se hui dushmani m unhone abbu ko barbad kr diya.....fir bhi unhone mujse kabhi ye share nahi kiya
And one day when i return from my school when vacations started...i take that back door of my house to enter inside my parents told me to use that entrance to come in....they are this much scared of Ammi's rivals.....wo kahi muze kuch na karde isliye bahot hifazat se rakha tha muze....lekin uss din jab m waha khada tha uss door k bilkul samne....when I heard sound of gun shot
My parents they are dead
Few cars go from my house's other entrance i was numb...not able to think anything
Two bullets hit coming through window n my parents...i heard there scream....few minutes later shakeeb meer arrived there......he did everything as a family member for funeral of my parents
Ammi has taken promise from me that I'll never come infront if this world untill n unless they would told me
I wanted to keep that promise for my ammi
I lost everything in single day
Only our lawyer knows about me who is close to my dad
He told me that mr khan has stolen everything from my parents....my dad's companies...his shares.....my mother's well established party... everything
I come to know that those cars who left that day was of mr khan n his some of political friends....
They plan this murder
I join one of the orphanage coz i was left alone in this world.... Dad don't have his family with him...n my mother also lost her family before i was born
I saw the worst days of my life living there Shehnaaz.....
No money....no food...not a proper education
After sometime my friend who used to be with me in my boarding school who has left the school in mid term for her parents business return to Lucknow again
( Here he was talking about asfiyan but didn't take his name)
He was also lost his parents in car accident which happened in US
He comeback with assets of his parents n when he meet me i told him my side of story....i decided to take revenge from mr khan n his family.....n from every person who just created that mess in my life....my friend help me with this.....
One day mr khan was giving his speech n his supporters are shouting his name standing by roadside.....my Friend acted like he was going to kill him holding knife in his hand
N before police n every other people come Infront of mr khan i run n stand before him acting like I'm protecting him
Watching knife there chaos created by public help my friend to rescued from there before police n his gaurds caught him
Mr khan ask my name n i told him im orphan
He was married since 7 years but don't have child so he decided to adopt me n my plan got succeed
This is how i entered in fariha mehel
Coming in this house....i slowly win there trust....find out everyone's weakness n use it for my benefits
Mr khan n his brother mozik was close n i found it could be not benificial for me i created misunderstanding in-between them....his son was taking charge of his office i also snatched it using my wittiness.....i broke down his family within few months
Ruqaiya begum n mr khan started to trust me blindly n i take everything back from them except one
My Ammi's party.....i wanted to sit on that CM's chair...on which mr khan was sitted at one time....bas usko hasil kr du fir mere Zindagi ka maqsad hi pura ho jayega....
Issi maqsad k liye ab tak zinda hu aise samaj lo.... bahot kuch saha hai mene yaha tak pohochne k liye....har distraction ko khud se dur rakha....taki m behek na jau apne maqsad se.....mere umar k ladke ladkiyan khoob enjoy krte the.... lekin mene khudko rok liya qki kisi se bhi ishq mohabat krke usko apni iss dangerous life m nahi gasitna chahta tha m...koi nayi kamjori nahi banani thi muze..... isliye kisi ladki se nikaah toh kya kabhi kuch mehsus krne k bare m bhi socha nahi.....
Bahot sakti se raha hu khudke sath bhi
Aur ab m apne maqam k bahot kareeb hu....4 mahino m elections h aur wo jit k m mr khan ko bahot badi shikast dunga....jit k m unhe bataunga k m kon hu...meri asli pehchan kya hai....
Lekin har bar jaise chaho waise hota nahi h...mr khan ko shakeeb se bhi badla lena tha qki wo ammi abbu k kareeb tha....aur Isliye unhone uski beti huma ko chuna...mera nikaah usse krwake wo usko tang krna chahte the taki shakeeb inke kadmo m gir k gidgidaye....minnate kare...uski koi jameen ka masla tha wo mr khan n sulja k usse dosti krni chahi
Lekin m mere ammi abbu k kareebi ko kaise barbaad hote dek sakta tha....mene shakeeb ko sara sach bataya aur kaha ki wo mr khan ko maat de kisi aur ladki k sath farzi nikaah padwake
Mene usko kaha tha shehnaaz....ammi ki kasam...kaha tha usko ki kisi paid actresses ko istemal kare
Aur usne mere lakh kehne k bawjood bhi tumhe iss kam k liye chun liya qki wo tumhari ammi aur tumse nafrat krta tha.....
Uski Ek tir se do nishane chahne ki khawaish n hum dono ko iss makam p la khada kiya hai
Uss din jab m tumse milne aaya tha tab m tumhe laid actress samj k paiso ki bat krne wala tha...lekin ruqaiya begum n kaha tha k pehle hi meeting m shakib ki beti ko apna deewana bana lo....wo dekhne aai thi k n wahi kr raha hu ya nahi
M apna asli chehra uske samne kaise aane deta jab ki m mere maqsad k bahot kareeb tha....
Ha m hu selfish lekin kya karu Zindagi n banaya h...meri andar ki aag n muje aise banaya hai....
Mene wahi kiya uss din...tumse mithi baten ki tumhe yakeen dilaya ki tum mere sath khush rahogi
Lekin nikaah k din jab tumne ye kaha k tum shakeeb ki beti nahi ho uske bhai ki beti ho aur ye nikaah koi farji nahi sachhai se bhara hua hai....tab m kuch soch nahi paya......tunhe bachane k liye m khudko harana nahi chahta tha
Agar tumhari madad krta toh unhe yakeen aata ki m shakeeb se mila hua hu uski help kr raha hu
Meri saloon ki mehnat tabah ho jati
Unka farmabadar beta ban n k liye mene unki har ek bat aj tak mani thi agar iss waqt mukhar jata toh unhe shaq hota
Mene wo nikaah kiya tumhe zuth keh k ki m huma se nahi tumse hi nikaah krne aaya hu....qki agar tum bhi nikaah m na hoti tab bhi shaq mujpe hi aata qki tumne mujse bat krne k liye kamre m bulaya tha mr khan jan lete k mene hi tumhe kuch kaha h plan ko leker
Mujse apni Zindagi ki sabse badi bhool ho gayi shehnaaz jiske liye m tumse taumar maafi mangne k liye taiyar hu
N he shed tears lowering down his head
Shehnaaz was already started to shed tears whn she realized that it's not his fault that she is suffering this things...its her destiny who again choose her for aziyat....here she feel guilty for blaming him till now for her pain.... listening his painful story she shed more tears
Sid :- mene tumhe fir bhi bachana chaha....nikash k bad zutha loss ka kissa bana k nr khan ko ulja diya....do din tak ruksati taal di ....do din tak unhe manatha raha....ki hum fas jayenge agar ladki n police involved ki toh wo log dar gaye aur tumhe divorce deke bhi barbad kiya ja sakta hai iss bat ko man n Lage
Lekin tum ja nahi rahi thi aur unhe tumhe hurt krte dek m aur guilty feel kr raha tha
Tumhe yaha se bhejne ka ek aur wajah thi shehnaaz
M tumhe chahne laga tha.....sach m biwi man n laga tha
Tum meri wo kamjori ban n lagi thi jisse m saloon se picha chhuda raha tha
Sidharth sikandar ko mohabat hone lagi thi aur m apne bare m janta hu....meri feelings ki koi had nahi hoti...nafrat ho ya mohabat......jo bhi krta hu behad krta hu....aur tumse hui mohabat mere dimag ko kamjor krne lagi thi
Jis din pehli bar tumhe dekha tab bhi mohabat hui thi.....jis din nikaah k jode m dekha tab BHI mohabat hui thi...jab tumne qubool hai jaha tab BHI mohabat hui thi....jab tumne uss ghar m pehla kadam rakha tab bhi tumse mohabat hui thi....jab tumhe apne kamre m khana khilaya tab BHI mohabat hui thi.....jab tumhe mene aj ruqaiya ki chal bachaya tab BHI mohabat hui thi Aur abhi yaha ammi k kabar k samne tumse apni mohabat ka ekraar kr raha hu...tab BHI mohabat ho rahi hai.... bahot jada....m rok nahi paa raha hu.....meri madad karo shehnaaz agar ye feelings haq se jada bad gayi na toh khuda bhi nahi rok payega muje tumhe apna bana ne se
N he look towards her lifting his heavy lashes...
Looking his red teary eyes shehnaaz's heart churned badly
Sid :- aj pata hai shakeeb ko mila m tumhare bare m sab jana gaya hu m tumhari majboori uss ghar m rehne ki sab kuch jan gaya hu m....aur pata h kya mehsus kiya mene yaha ( Point towards his heart ) Tumhe apni bahon m chupa k rakh lu....tumhari taumar hifazat karu
M chahta toh meri Zindagi ka sach tumhe bata deta lekin mene is chiz ko apni parchai se bhi chupa kr rakha tha....m dar gaya tha kisi aur ko bhi iss raaj m shamil krne
Lekin aj tumhari aziyat ki kahani jani tab mehsus hua k tumhara haq banta h mere bare m sab jan na.....qki ab m ye nikaah chahta hu shehnaaz.....muze tum chaiye meri Zindagi m....hum dono hi tanhah h hum dono ko ek dusare ki jarurat h....muje tumhari jada jarurat h qki m paglo wali mohabat krne laga hu tumse aur tumhara dur jana ab muje barbad kr dega.....meri mohabat had par kr chuki h shehnaaz....m ab tumhe kahi jane nahi de sakta....thak gaya hu iss chiz se bhagte bhagte....ab nahi hoga mujse m bina kisi dar k tumhe apni mohabat se rubaru karana chahta hu
M sare gunaah qubool kr chuka hu...maffi dena ya na dena tumhari marzi hogi lekin ye yad hamesha rakhna ki ab ye nikaah kaiyant tak chalega...na tum kahi jaogi na hi m... khuda bhi ab hame alag nahi kr sakta
Muze shehnaaz sidharth Sikandar chaiye meri life m......meri strength ban kr
N shehnaaz's heart started to beat loudly......his confession is like him....brave
He tighten his grip on her hand...there palms now started to sweat coz of held for a long time
But still none of them feel like to lossen the grip on each other
Sid :- ye aakhri manjeel hoti hai shehnaaz....maut....marne k bad sabko yaha aana h....yaha koi zuth nahi bol payega....ek lafz sach the mere meri jaan...trust me.....saloon bad aj roya hu....mere Zindagi m jo jagah ammi abbu ki thi waha ab tum bhi ho....meri biwi.... hamesha rahogi tum meri ban k....
N he lift there joined hand n kiss on back of her palm
She lower down her gaze feeling something different
Sid smile slightly n utter again
Sid :- i saw you few days ago praying namaj in dadijaan's room
You was looking angel like biwi..... could u please pray for my ammi
N she nod instantly
She tried to loose the grip of him from her hand but he didn't loose his grip
She joined her brows asking him to leave her hand free through her eyes
But what he did next that skip her heartbeats
He stand n sit behind her on his knees... caging her between his thighs n then lift her other palm up in air.....he joined her palms n exact behind her palms he joined his palm n close eyes to pray for his ammi n abbu
His this gesture made butterflies fly in her belly
She wearing shy smile close her eyes to pray
Once they done with reciting verses of their holy book..he utter looking grave of his mother
Sid :- ammi apki bahu begum se miliye....aur abbu aap bhi.....meri biwi hai ye
He utter last line holding proudness in his voice
N shehnaaz shiver listening his authoritive tone
His arms are touching het arms he is almost hugging her from behind...he clutch her both palms in his big one n utter
Sid :- kaisi lagi meri shehnaaz apko ammi
N strong breeze hit on there faces n sid smile brightly
Sid :- utter in her ear
She likes you.....
N listening him shehnaaz tilt her head to look at his handsome face n close her eyes taking long breathe
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